Happy Tuesday! I worked a new job this morning, it went well! It’s always anxiety inducing to do something new whether it be a job or hobby or event etc. I think pushing ourselves to do uncomfortable things keeps us from getting too “rusty”. I’ve been focusing on tuning into my body more during stressful times. “Leaving my body” aka dissociating is something I really noticed during a hair appointment I had a couple years ago. They did such a terrible job that I was no joke, pretty traumatized by it. I found myself wondering what happened and how did it happen. I had almost no memory of the appointment itself. Like I blacked out during it or something. I think it was/is something I do during all hair appointments and during a lot of other instances. Also, I was more worried about making her feel comfortable and like she was doing a great job than I was about whether she was giving me a haircut that I call:

‘Stevie Nicks got in a fight with a lawnmower’

Hey, nothing wrong with that type of haircut but it was the literal opposite of what I told her I wanted.

Now whenever I’m in a stressful situation I remind myself to focus on my breath. If I am able to then I’ll do box breathing:

Breathe in for 4 seconds, hold 4 seconds, exhale 4 seconds, hold 4 seconds

I strongly believe this teaches us to feel safe in unsafe, new or stressful situation.

I’ve had a couple days off from regular work and it’s been nice. It gave me time for my soul to come back into my body lol and be fully immersed in my own world again. I got SO much organizing done (for myself, I also organize professionally and believe it or not I am not a naturally organized person, I have to work really hard at it pretty much daily). It is a huge relief decluttering and going through things I’ve put off for a little while.

Here in Colorado it’s been a pretty mild winter but today’s high is like 15° and tomorrow it’s about the same. After that it’ll be in the 40s, 50s, even 60s! 🤯 I feel spring is right around the corner and I am happy about that! That’s probably it for this Tuesday Tangent. I’m getting into the habit of writing regularly like I used to!✌️